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i hope everything is fine at the other side…. at the moment i’m trying hard to run towards the safe side but i keep on stumbling on my way there…..my legs can’t seem to function properly…..and sometimes my heart beats faster but most of the time i think it forgot to beat at all….
And the Hereafter is better for you than the first [life]. (93:4)
"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect – you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break – her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”
- Bob Marley
Quote of the day: “Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it would come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often times it hurts, but love’s only special when you give it to someone who is worth it. So take your time and choose the best”
A lot of people told me not to worry, as i will find somebody else better, but the thing is, i wanted it to lasts forever or else i would’ve find a replacement when i had the chance(s).
A friend told me that everybody would go through this kind of experience in life, how naive was i to even thought that i wouldn’t face this situation again and again :(((( (Although this case is different than my previous relationship but both are broken-hearted)
Another friend said that i am taking things well, but the thing is, she doesn’t know what goes around behind the scenes.
I hate it when i’m all alone, because that’s when all the unwanted memories come flooding in my head. People say, don’t think about it, and trust me i am trying hard not to but sometimes even the slightest thing could trigger back the memories.
I’m still figuring out what i did wrong to deserve such fate..i’m sure that i am also to be blamed, it’s just that i still don’t know what it is. It’s not that i’m too ego, thinking that i never did wrong because i believe it takes two to start a fight.
It saddens me when he treat me like i was never part of his lives. I’m amazed that a person could totally erase another person (who he claimed to love) in his life within a short span of time. I guess it was never love in the first place and i should not supposed to trust and let him in.
If you’re thinking that i am still wishing and hoping that things would come back to where it used to, then you’re wrong, because what’s done is done. I just can’t believe that this is happening to me. Sometimes i think that i’m living in a dream, and hope that one day somebody would wake me up from this nightmare. It happened so quickly i didn’t have the chance to prepare myself when it came.
To be honest, i am exhausted of being in this phase. I want to skip this part of my life but of course that is being immature. People say i’ll be happier in the future, but what about the present? Mom said there’s a blessing in disguise and i’m still figuring what it is.(Thanks for the lovely doa;hugs and kisses ma!)
The wound is still fresh and i am nursing it slowly. I feel disappointed that he chose this decision. I lost my so called best friend. Nobody to ask me how i spent my day, nobody to wish me good night, nobody to share my problems with. He decided to play that role for another person (i keep thinking about this and he always said im being negative and immature, but he is the one that leads me to that issue) but like i said what’s done is done.